When I first went into law enforcement there was a quote I heard and I'm sure it had and has been repeated a bunch, but it went something like...
When something bad happens there are those who say "thank God I wasn't there" and there are those who say "God I wish I had been there... I could have made a difference"...
That thought has resonated with me... not for some thrill seeking or morbid desire to kill but because I know I've trained and I've invested in being "ready" to protect. It's what I've spent my entire career getting ready to do if necessary.
We've seen in the past when some are met with that moment and have to live with their choice not to go.
Something bad happened. Those guys made a difference. They have all of my respect.
Besides that I have no words right now.