congrats on surviving to retirement...
now while this sounds harsh, pull your pants up, get over yourself(es) and move on with life in general and your retirement $$ and go enjoy life, family, ad nauseam...
trust me, sitting around in a "woe is me" is extremely counter productive as there are tremendous opportunities to volunteer your services...yes volunteer to see if you enjoy the environment and experience...
also remember, thousands of folks retire from the military each year after traveling the world, w/ & w/o their families defending this country against real and imagined issues.
true story, brother was patrolman, then moved up, then chief, then decided the mayor was an idiot, so ran and then served two terms, then continued to function within the city's infrastructure...oh and didn't get into the wanta-be-LEOSA mentality whatsoever...
as a military enlisted retiree, the realization I was retired arrived immediately when I arrived at the aeroport of my new stateside job which I obtained while still on active duty at an overseas location & before i retired, so here I was looking around for my sponsor to help me navigate the place and it hit me...I'm on my own...and moved out accordingly.
again, congrats for surviving to retirement but aim your sight forward in lieu of behind you...