I was working under quite a severe base-load of stress at the time, also, which probably increased my vulnerability...long story there as well but yeah, now that you put it on the table I think it makes a ton of sense.
Well, at least that gives me a good path for managing it. Thank you - I mean really thank you - for bringing it up; I hadn't thought of it in those terms but hearing it from you validates a feeling about it that I don't think I'd entirely admitted to myself until now.
Surely one of the strangest thread-drifts of all time here, sorry bobcat dude