And at my church, every one of those people he is shooting is a friend, child or family member. I am going to work to stop the threat as fast as humanly possible, even if it involves significant risk to myself.
I do not enjoy watching children die. I never have, and doubt I ever will.
I am definitely not attacking you. I am just not comfortable with the concept of biding my time while gunfire is occuring. I will execute a draw stroke as fast as I can, and fire as precise a shot as needed.
If something happens to me, I've had a good run. That's not bravado, just acceptance of decisions I have already made.