Hey man, none of that matters. The only thing that matters is that you are better today than you were yesterday. Work back through the fundamentals and learn those triggers well.
For anyone interested - If you have trouble with your grip, outside of deadlifts I recommend purchasing a set of captains of crush (lightest set first) grippers and a couple of 10 lbs. plates to do plate pinches. Increase weight/difficulty as your grip and forearms get stronger.