Pussy......somebody had to say it......
welcome to being a FAG. The key to former action guy was that at least you were an action guy. The reality is that action guys get broken. Hardest thing I have had to do was coming to grips with the reality that when you get broken enough, you become a liability and it takes a lot of self sacrifice of your ego to simply admit that you are no longer the strongest link in the chain and that you may actually be the weakest link. I never wanted to be responsible for getting someone killed, especially when it was likely to be one of "my kids" that I was so heavily invested in training and working with.
Dude, you are a rock star in your world and well respected by the people you work with. Your name always comes up as one of the most squared away guys in your world.....and that is a small world full of very exceptional folks. I respect the hell out of you for leaving on top, rather than waiting till you are a real liability.
Hope you have as much success in the post action guy world.
So, when is your book coming out.......